Whoops, I haven't updated this today.
What I've eaten:
1 banana
1 handful of chips
1 instant crystal-light energy in wild strawberry
5ish pieces of french bread
2 cups of Spaghetti
2 cups of small meatballs (the sauce took up a lot of room ;D)
Soo many calories in that bread, but dinner also accounted for my lunch. So I'm not too upset about it. I probably should binge like that though. Only a week until grocery shopping! I'm making a list :D
I'm still super sick and I have a band concert this Wednesday, it was supposed to be next Wednesday, but the administration triple-booked the 9th, frickkkkkkk.
Oh well.
It cuts into my 'house-cleaning' time, and that is really important. I better not be loaded with homework. I guess speed house-cleaning will only be better for me, huh? I don't care! I just want the easy way out. Ahhhhhhhhhhh. XDD
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Saturday, November 28, 2009
FOOOOOOODDD Cont...
What I've eaten today:
Ham sandwich
bowl of golden grahams
1 3/4 cups of Cheesy Ranch Burger Hamburger Helper (it sounded sooo gross, but really wasn't that bad)
1 roll (no butter, and I think it was white bread)
2 handfuls of tortilla chips
1 banana
Yep, that's it.
I didn't do too bad, yeah?
Plus I texted the guy I like, hahahaha, gah, I sound like a teeny-bopper. But it made my night. Even if it was only for a little bit.
Now I'm scared to text him to restart a convo, but naw, I'll just wait for him.
I can't wait for this upcoming week.
Granted, I'll be sick and cleaning.
But, it's my birthday party this Saturday with the lovely Mount Si GSA :DDDD
And hopefully a lot of people end up sleeping over, hahahaha.
And then the next week I have my actual birthday, my birthday dinner/dessert, and a band concert and maybe pep band. Ah, soo much to do. And then there's that week off before break. And then there's Christmas BREAK! Yesss, two weeks, yo! And new Years.
I'm hopin' for snow around that time...no flooding though. ;]
Ham sandwich
bowl of golden grahams
1 3/4 cups of Cheesy Ranch Burger Hamburger Helper (it sounded sooo gross, but really wasn't that bad)
1 roll (no butter, and I think it was white bread)
2 handfuls of tortilla chips
1 banana
Yep, that's it.
I didn't do too bad, yeah?
Plus I texted the guy I like, hahahaha, gah, I sound like a teeny-bopper. But it made my night. Even if it was only for a little bit.
Now I'm scared to text him to restart a convo, but naw, I'll just wait for him.
I can't wait for this upcoming week.
Granted, I'll be sick and cleaning.
But, it's my birthday party this Saturday with the lovely Mount Si GSA :DDDD
And hopefully a lot of people end up sleeping over, hahahaha.
And then the next week I have my actual birthday, my birthday dinner/dessert, and a band concert and maybe pep band. Ah, soo much to do. And then there's that week off before break. And then there's Christmas BREAK! Yesss, two weeks, yo! And new Years.
I'm hopin' for snow around that time...no flooding though. ;]
Day Eight- 11/28/09
Blahhh. I feel soo sick today. I slept in until 1:00.
And I told myself I'd clean my room at 3:00. But uh...it's 5:30 and I haven't done it yet.
I'll do it after dinner. Maybe some food will wake me up. I hope at least. I feel LIKE CRAP today. No joke.
What I've eaten today:
1 ham sandwich (baked ham on 1 piece of sourdough 1 piece of wheat XD)
1 bowl of golden grahams (1% milk)
THAT'S IT! AHHHHHHH!
I'm starving.
We have food. But it's close to dinner.
I can wait I guess.
I think we're having hamburger helper.
But the nasty kind--cheesy ranch burger....ew! We've been avoiding that one.
I hope we end up having something relatively better or that flavor isn't that nasty. :|
Bleh.
I want foooooooooooo0000000OOOOOOO0000ddddd0000iiiiiooooooooooooOOOOOOO00000OOOOOOOOOOoooooooo00000OOOO!
And I told myself I'd clean my room at 3:00. But uh...it's 5:30 and I haven't done it yet.
I'll do it after dinner. Maybe some food will wake me up. I hope at least. I feel LIKE CRAP today. No joke.
What I've eaten today:
1 ham sandwich (baked ham on 1 piece of sourdough 1 piece of wheat XD)
1 bowl of golden grahams (1% milk)
THAT'S IT! AHHHHHHH!
I'm starving.
We have food. But it's close to dinner.
I can wait I guess.
I think we're having hamburger helper.
But the nasty kind--cheesy ranch burger....ew! We've been avoiding that one.
I hope we end up having something relatively better or that flavor isn't that nasty. :|
Bleh.
I want foooooooooooo0000000OOOOOOO0000ddddd0000iiiiiooooooooooooOOOOOOO00000OOOOOOOOOOoooooooo00000OOOO!
Friday, November 27, 2009
Day Seven--11/27/09
So, I've been on the computer all day, but yeah, I haven't postedanything. And if I did, I don't remember it.
What I've eaten today:
Bowl of Cheerios
1 ham sandwich (baked ham)
1 serving of ham
1.5 cups of mashed potatoes
2 rolls (white I think)
1 mug of hot cocoa
Some juice (hahaha)
1 piece of pumpkin pie (kinda small...well, medium)
Not too bad I guess.
I'm just really tired and my teeth are pissing me off. Whenever I drink something, it makes my teeth hurt. They're sensitive to the cold or warmth. Ahhhh, I don't want to have anymore cavities. But I just naturally have sensitive teeth, so I hope it passes XD
Short post.
Happy late Thanksgiving!
What I've eaten today:
Bowl of Cheerios
1 ham sandwich (baked ham)
1 serving of ham
1.5 cups of mashed potatoes
2 rolls (white I think)
1 mug of hot cocoa
Some juice (hahaha)
1 piece of pumpkin pie (kinda small...well, medium)
Not too bad I guess.
I'm just really tired and my teeth are pissing me off. Whenever I drink something, it makes my teeth hurt. They're sensitive to the cold or warmth. Ahhhh, I don't want to have anymore cavities. But I just naturally have sensitive teeth, so I hope it passes XD
Short post.
Happy late Thanksgiving!
Thursday, November 26, 2009
THANKSGIVING!
Well, I'm uber sick so I ended up staying home today. Yes, that means I DID NOT go to my Grammy's house...oh well. I really wish I could of gone, but I think I really need some rest. I have to clean my room this Saturday. My birthday party is next Saturday, and I don't like cleaning on top of homework. Plus, my room is a disaster. Hahahaha!
What I ate today:
1 serving of ham
1 serving of turkey
(^1 serving of meat=one full fist)
3/4 cup of mashed potatoes
3 mugs of hot chocolate (had a bit too much... XD)
2 slices of peanut butter toast on wheat bread (breakfast)
1 grilled cheese sandwich (prepared healthily...lunch/snack)
2/3 c of macaroni and cheese (prepared 'lightly' so I used unsalted butter and 1% milk, plus, I only made half a box, that ended up being about 180 calories or so)
1 cup of Koolaid(!!)
Honey
1 small (2 by 3 inches) piece of Striped Delight...OMG, sooooo indulgent! Hahahaha, but very tasty
I think I did...poorly compared to a normal day, but F that, it's THANKSGIVING. I'll eat all I want to ;D
And for Thanksgiving, that could have been wayyy wayyy worse. I probably would have done better if I went to dinner with my family, but oh well.
I'm kinda bummed I didn't get any stuffing D: I'll just go to the store and buy some, whoo!
Oh yeah, I'm hoping I get that job---Stina, pray for me! ;D
Anyway, yeah, I'm tired, gonna go play the Sims, yessss!
What I ate today:
1 serving of ham
1 serving of turkey
(^1 serving of meat=one full fist)
3/4 cup of mashed potatoes
3 mugs of hot chocolate (had a bit too much... XD)
2 slices of peanut butter toast on wheat bread (breakfast)
1 grilled cheese sandwich (prepared healthily...lunch/snack)
2/3 c of macaroni and cheese (prepared 'lightly' so I used unsalted butter and 1% milk, plus, I only made half a box, that ended up being about 180 calories or so)
1 cup of Koolaid(!!)
Honey
1 small (2 by 3 inches) piece of Striped Delight...OMG, sooooo indulgent! Hahahaha, but very tasty
I think I did...poorly compared to a normal day, but F that, it's THANKSGIVING. I'll eat all I want to ;D
And for Thanksgiving, that could have been wayyy wayyy worse. I probably would have done better if I went to dinner with my family, but oh well.
I'm kinda bummed I didn't get any stuffing D: I'll just go to the store and buy some, whoo!
Oh yeah, I'm hoping I get that job---Stina, pray for me! ;D
Anyway, yeah, I'm tired, gonna go play the Sims, yessss!
Day Six--11/26/09
Happy Thanksgiving!
Today, I really don't know what's going on. I might be going up to my family's house or I might not be. I'm really sick so it could go either way. I'd rather stay home so I can make it to school next week, but I kinda want the food, hahaha. But in all honesty, I don't want the food, too. I mean, it sounds great, but it'd completely screw everything up for me. If I stay home, I can just make some biscuits and cream of mushroom soup with hamburger in it, and call it good. That'd be a-okay.
Today, I really don't know what's going on. I might be going up to my family's house or I might not be. I'm really sick so it could go either way. I'd rather stay home so I can make it to school next week, but I kinda want the food, hahaha. But in all honesty, I don't want the food, too. I mean, it sounds great, but it'd completely screw everything up for me. If I stay home, I can just make some biscuits and cream of mushroom soup with hamburger in it, and call it good. That'd be a-okay.
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
DINNER!
Ah, I really want that job at Maurices. I need to pay for my trip to Korea and I just want to have the assurance that I have spending money no matter what. And I hate asking my mom for money all the time when I know that she doesn't have it. I'm really hoping I get a job, really utterly, hoping. And if not, I don't know what I am going to do.
Well...for dinner was taquitos and rice.
I had five or six, small, corn tortilla taquitos. Thankfully my mom steamed the tortillas instead of frying them in oil. However, she did deep-fry them in the end, but they tasted much much healthier. And I had a cup or two of rice. I'm very full and I might call it a night at just having that. Maybe I'll have hot chocolate later on or something, but for now, I'll probably only be having nothing.
Day Five= SUCCESS! I just need to start working out. I'll a pact with myself that I will start doing it next week. Whoo! I love working out. Well, not for the first few days, but once I get the hang of it, it's soooooo much fun! I wish I had a treadmill or something, that'd make working out soo much more enjoyable.
Ah, good night! :D
Well...for dinner was taquitos and rice.
I had five or six, small, corn tortilla taquitos. Thankfully my mom steamed the tortillas instead of frying them in oil. However, she did deep-fry them in the end, but they tasted much much healthier. And I had a cup or two of rice. I'm very full and I might call it a night at just having that. Maybe I'll have hot chocolate later on or something, but for now, I'll probably only be having nothing.
Day Five= SUCCESS! I just need to start working out. I'll a pact with myself that I will start doing it next week. Whoo! I love working out. Well, not for the first few days, but once I get the hang of it, it's soooooo much fun! I wish I had a treadmill or something, that'd make working out soo much more enjoyable.
Ah, good night! :D
Ahhh, coughing, food, blahhhhh
Please excuse my overly LAME blog entries lately, I just don't have much to say, being on the computer while I'm sick is a drag.
Well, since that last post I've had...:
A PB&J sandwich
I'm proud of myself I'm eating less, but I feel as if I'm almost eating...not enough. I should be eating more, but this is just weird. Maybe this is how normal people eat...well, I don't know.
Anyway. I was watching "Kourtney and Khloe take over Miami" (Kardashian) and it made me even more motivated. I mean, Khloe doesn't have a body like Kim. THey both have hips and ass, but Khloe has a stomach...she has a BODY. I think they are all thinspos for me. Not-so-much Kourtney though, she's a little too thin.
Ah, I wish I could elaborate more, but I am sooooo fricken' tired. Jesus.
Here are some photos of the sisters:
^Don't mind the person all the way on the right XD HAHAHAHA
Well, since that last post I've had...:
A PB&J sandwich
I'm proud of myself I'm eating less, but I feel as if I'm almost eating...not enough. I should be eating more, but this is just weird. Maybe this is how normal people eat...well, I don't know.
Anyway. I was watching "Kourtney and Khloe take over Miami" (Kardashian) and it made me even more motivated. I mean, Khloe doesn't have a body like Kim. THey both have hips and ass, but Khloe has a stomach...she has a BODY. I think they are all thinspos for me. Not-so-much Kourtney though, she's a little too thin.
Ah, I wish I could elaborate more, but I am sooooo fricken' tired. Jesus.
Here are some photos of the sisters:
^Don't mind the person all the way on the right XD HAHAHAHA
Day Five--11/25/09
I stayed home from school today because I am soo, fricken' sick. It sucks assssss. But thankfully, I haven't eaten today except for crackers, monkey bread (buttermilk biscuits with margarine and brown sugar melted on top, after they arecovered with sugar and cinnamon, probably not uber healthy, but it could be worse...I suppose) and milk 1% of course ;D
Today is going great. I have to go up to the outlet mall to turn in my job application. I really want this job...soo bad. I hope I at least get called back for an interview. D:
I'll add more later.
We're having taquitos for dinner--another one of my weaknesses.
Today is going great. I have to go up to the outlet mall to turn in my job application. I really want this job...soo bad. I hope I at least get called back for an interview. D:
I'll add more later.
We're having taquitos for dinner--another one of my weaknesses.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Dinner,,,,,,...;;;;yum
DINNER:
1 cup of rice
2 thinish slices of meatloaf
three whole-wheat rolls not buttered
1 cup of au gratin potatoes
Mmmm, good dinner, not too many calories I don't think. I'm not really in the mood to check! Hahahaha.
Another short post.
I wanna go watch The Bad Girls Club XD
1 cup of rice
2 thinish slices of meatloaf
three whole-wheat rolls not buttered
1 cup of au gratin potatoes
Mmmm, good dinner, not too many calories I don't think. I'm not really in the mood to check! Hahahaha.
Another short post.
I wanna go watch The Bad Girls Club XD
Day Four--11/24/09--Lunch
I need to make a habit out of eating breakfast, I hear it'll help with some things. Like eating and concentrating.
What I've Eaten Today so far:
1 serving of fries
1 turkey burger
crackers
1 cup of coffee
I'm glad I chose the turkey burger over a beef hamburger--that was a good choice.
I'm really sick today, so I won't write much. I need to rest, I might be going back up to North Bend to get some more job apps. Ahhh. God.
What I've Eaten Today so far:
1 serving of fries
1 turkey burger
crackers
1 cup of coffee
I'm glad I chose the turkey burger over a beef hamburger--that was a good choice.
I'm really sick today, so I won't write much. I need to rest, I might be going back up to North Bend to get some more job apps. Ahhh. God.
Monday, November 23, 2009
Good Night
I had another bowl of cheerios.
I'd declare today another "okay" day.
I think tomorrow, I'll bake something healthy and that'll last a while and be filling...I'm not quite sure what that is, but I'll tell you when I find out.
Now, I have to fill out job applications and I gotta go back to North Bend tomorrow to get a few more. Yes? No.
I'd declare today another "okay" day.
I think tomorrow, I'll bake something healthy and that'll last a while and be filling...I'm not quite sure what that is, but I'll tell you when I find out.
Now, I have to fill out job applications and I gotta go back to North Bend tomorrow to get a few more. Yes? No.
Motivation!
Motivations for losing weight:
1. looking better in shirts
2. looking better in skinny jeans (I think I look alright in them, but I want to have a more of a "rocker" style)
3. look better in skirts
4. move around easier
5. look more graceful
6. DANCE IN PUBLIC
7. not have to second guess myself
8. get admiration from guys (and men ;DD)
9. go to the beach and look/feel sexy
10. get into a bikini
11. buy clothes at nice stores (like American Eagle, True Religion, Macys...hell, the juniors section!)
12. go into any store and find my size
13. be able to do fitness-y things without being worn out after only a little bit
I'll add more to this list as the days go on, but for now, this is it.
I need to look at these lists and chose between the food or these goals...hmmm?
1. looking better in shirts
2. looking better in skinny jeans (I think I look alright in them, but I want to have a more of a "rocker" style)
3. look better in skirts
4. move around easier
5. look more graceful
6. DANCE IN PUBLIC
7. not have to second guess myself
8. get admiration from guys (and men ;DD)
9. go to the beach and look/feel sexy
10. get into a bikini
11. buy clothes at nice stores (like American Eagle, True Religion, Macys...hell, the juniors section!)
12. go into any store and find my size
13. be able to do fitness-y things without being worn out after only a little bit
I'll add more to this list as the days go on, but for now, this is it.
I need to look at these lists and chose between the food or these goals...hmmm?
Hey!
Jeez, Kim Kardashian is sexy. Hahahaha. I would kill to have her body. That's my goal. Even though through all of the blubber on my body, I can see what I have a not-so-curvy body, well, not as curvy as Kim K up there. I still will have hips and thighs and a butt. Yes! But, you can never be so sure ;]
Dinner!
- More Coffee
- Two servings of teriyaki
I think that's good, considering I cooked all of the oils out of the meat, which meant it as a little dry, but that's better than leaking oil--sick! And rice isn't that great for you, but...it was worth it. Until I can get some healthy foods in this house, I'll just have to eat like this (as mentioned multiple times).
I think I'll call it good for the night.
Maybe have another cup of coffee before the night ends.
Who knows, yeah?
Well, my mom comes home from work at 6:00 and around 6:30, I gotta go to the outlet mall and get some job apps and if we have the time, go scout out some Starbucks'. Whoo!
Ah, I. can't. stop. coughing.
^That is soo sick, I'll never EVER do that D:
FOOOOD
Quick Entry
What I've eaten so far today:
Crackers
Bowl of Cheerios with a little sugar and 1% milk
Toasted Cheese sandwich (as mentioned before)
Cup of coffee
Caprisun
Two servings of homemade french fries
Steak Sandwich
So pretty much the last two were FAILS, I couldn't help myself.
But I'll eat this sandwich SlowwwwLYYYY, so I'll get fuller. I'm making teriyaki for dinner, so I gotta control myself with portions there.
I'm going job searching today...nerrrvoussss XD
What I've eaten so far today:
Crackers
Bowl of Cheerios with a little sugar and 1% milk
Toasted Cheese sandwich (as mentioned before)
Cup of coffee
Caprisun
Two servings of homemade french fries
Steak Sandwich
So pretty much the last two were FAILS, I couldn't help myself.
But I'll eat this sandwich SlowwwwLYYYY, so I'll get fuller. I'm making teriyaki for dinner, so I gotta control myself with portions there.
I'm going job searching today...nerrrvoussss XD
Monday--11/23/09: Day Three
Whoo, today's a new day!
I'm a bit early getting ready for school, so I suppose I'll write a short entry today.
So, I'm glad there's school today. Really glad. It means I can't snack and search around the house for food.
Though, I know when I get home I'll be starving which will then prompt me to eat faster and more food. I don't know what I'll have today anyway...maybe stir fry? Or...I don't know. I'll figure it out.
Today, I've snacked on a few crackers, but nothing much. I might have some Kool-Aid before I leave for school...yes!
Adios until later on :D
I'm a bit early getting ready for school, so I suppose I'll write a short entry today.
So, I'm glad there's school today. Really glad. It means I can't snack and search around the house for food.
Though, I know when I get home I'll be starving which will then prompt me to eat faster and more food. I don't know what I'll have today anyway...maybe stir fry? Or...I don't know. I'll figure it out.
Today, I've snacked on a few crackers, but nothing much. I might have some Kool-Aid before I leave for school...yes!
Adios until later on :D
Sunday, November 22, 2009
1,778
That's how many calories I have consumed today (including Jello and tonight's dinner).
I guess my goal is to eat under 2000 a day, but eating 1800 or less is even better. I won't be obsessed with this, I just...like I said yesterday...need to train myself to eat in moderation.
With this, I'll render today a success! Yes, I love having successful days.
The first two days of all of this have been good...but now I'm wondering when it'll get worse and how bad it'll get.
I don't know. I'm just going to go with it. I think it'll take me a month or two or even three to really get a handle on eating less and eating right. But with my pal, Stina, on my side, I think I'll be able to go this.
I guess my goal is to eat under 2000 a day, but eating 1800 or less is even better. I won't be obsessed with this, I just...like I said yesterday...need to train myself to eat in moderation.
With this, I'll render today a success! Yes, I love having successful days.
The first two days of all of this have been good...but now I'm wondering when it'll get worse and how bad it'll get.
I don't know. I'm just going to go with it. I think it'll take me a month or two or even three to really get a handle on eating less and eating right. But with my pal, Stina, on my side, I think I'll be able to go this.
I give up
...on liking anybody anymore.
I mean, I become infatuated with somebody, I try to get to know them, we have a million things in common, and then I get bored of them or I talk to them too much to where it seems like I am trying too hard. It sucks, because...I'm always second choice, always second best, ahhh, this sucks.
I want to go into more detail, but I have things to do.
Nonetheless, life sucks sometimes, yeah?
I mean, I become infatuated with somebody, I try to get to know them, we have a million things in common, and then I get bored of them or I talk to them too much to where it seems like I am trying too hard. It sucks, because...I'm always second choice, always second best, ahhh, this sucks.
I want to go into more detail, but I have things to do.
Nonetheless, life sucks sometimes, yeah?
So...
I ended up having a two bowls of cereal, Peanut Butter Crunch to be exact.
Probably not the healthiest.
But we're having a relatively healthy dinner.
STEW!
It's packed with protein and veggies, so that'll be my healthy meal of the day, I'll eat this bowl of cereal and call it good until dinner. And then Jello for dessert.
Yes, I hope today becomes a success!
What I've eaten so far today:
2 Cinnamon Rolls with 1 piece of bacon inside each
1 cup of coffee with a tsp of sugar and some milk and french vanilla creamer
1 toasted cheese sandwich
2 bowls of cereal
Probably not the healthiest.
But we're having a relatively healthy dinner.
STEW!
It's packed with protein and veggies, so that'll be my healthy meal of the day, I'll eat this bowl of cereal and call it good until dinner. And then Jello for dessert.
Yes, I hope today becomes a success!
What I've eaten so far today:
2 Cinnamon Rolls with 1 piece of bacon inside each
1 cup of coffee with a tsp of sugar and some milk and french vanilla creamer
1 toasted cheese sandwich
2 bowls of cereal
Ah, CRAVINGS
Damnnnn.
I want another sandwich! D: It was soooo fricken' good. HAHAHA
I might make another one in a little bit.
Even though I shouldn't.
I'll see if it passes.
Or I can just have a bowl of Cheerios and watch a movie in the living room...?
Yeah, that second option sounds better.
SCREW YOU CRAVINGS, I WON'T SUCCUMB TO YOUR EVILNESS!
I want another sandwich! D: It was soooo fricken' good. HAHAHA
I might make another one in a little bit.
Even though I shouldn't.
I'll see if it passes.
Or I can just have a bowl of Cheerios and watch a movie in the living room...?
Yeah, that second option sounds better.
SCREW YOU CRAVINGS, I WON'T SUCCUMB TO YOUR EVILNESS!
Blah Blah Blah
Lunch Today:
Toasted Cheese sandwich (prepared the same way as yesterday)
I might have soup or cereal, also. In case I get hungry that is. I'm eating this sandwich rather slowly, so we'll see.
Today was been alright so far. I went to Walgreen's and got my make-up. I accidentally got one shade lighter, but that's probably good because it's basically wintertime and I'll start to lose my tan more. I like it though, the make-up. It makes me feel a little more confident. I think I'll REALLY just wear the foundation and mascara. That's all. And somedays I'll put on some eye shadow. I just want to be more natural. And I might start wearing my hair down--naturally! We'll see, I've never done that before, so that'll take a lot of confidence in myself to do so.
I'm excited for this weight-loss thing...have I mentioned that yet? I'm already doing well, I just need to start working out so this dieting (<--dare I call it that? Er...eating better) will really have its effect on my body. I feel empty though. Not a good kind of empty either. I can't wait until I can eat HEALTHY foods. Only 12 more days until the big grocery shopping trip! Hahaha.
I attached a video to this, I hope it works. Ah, I don't think it did, I'll put a link below!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_OBPWUijk4M
Toasted Cheese sandwich (prepared the same way as yesterday)
I might have soup or cereal, also. In case I get hungry that is. I'm eating this sandwich rather slowly, so we'll see.
Today was been alright so far. I went to Walgreen's and got my make-up. I accidentally got one shade lighter, but that's probably good because it's basically wintertime and I'll start to lose my tan more. I like it though, the make-up. It makes me feel a little more confident. I think I'll REALLY just wear the foundation and mascara. That's all. And somedays I'll put on some eye shadow. I just want to be more natural. And I might start wearing my hair down--naturally! We'll see, I've never done that before, so that'll take a lot of confidence in myself to do so.
I'm excited for this weight-loss thing...have I mentioned that yet? I'm already doing well, I just need to start working out so this dieting (<--dare I call it that? Er...eating better) will really have its effect on my body. I feel empty though. Not a good kind of empty either. I can't wait until I can eat HEALTHY foods. Only 12 more days until the big grocery shopping trip! Hahaha.
I attached a video to this, I hope it works. Ah, I don't think it did, I'll put a link below!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_OBPWUijk4M
Sunday: 11/22/09--Day Two!
Good Morning!
I haven't eaten yet, but it looks like my step-dad is making cinnamon-rolls with bacon in them...TALK ABOUT HOW BAD THOSE ARE, taste wise and health wise. I might cave and have one or two. But that'll suffice as breakfast. I'm leaving to go get make-up at noon, so I'll probably be home around two or 1:30. That really depends. Which means I can have lunch LATER in the day, meaning, I won't have to snack :DDD We're running out of food, hahaha, so I might have cereal for lunch. Cereal with...I don't know yet, probably just cereal. Hey, food is food.
I honestly cannot wait until my mom goes to the grocery store. Because I'm making a list for her, a list of things I'll need. Like, yogurt, grapes, apples, bananas, granola bars, some sort of healthy cracker, and that's good.
But...I'll be honest, again. I KnOw, I kNoW I will just cave in many situations coming up. Like Thanksgiving. And my party. And my birthday dessert. And coffee with Liam. And ahhh, just soo many things. Below, I'll make some compromises:
Thanksgiving:
Instead of going for seconds...I won't. I'll take smaller portions of turkey, potatoes, stuffing, and only one roll. I mean, there is no real healthy way to eat on thanksgiving unless your family is vegan or something...
My Party:
I know no one will want to eat veggies and fruits. So I'll still have chips, cookies, and soda...BUT, once again, I'll limit myself. This whole thing needs to start with me being able to limit myself. I eat and eat and eat, but I need to learn to just eat. Before hand we are going to Seattle, which means that's where I'll eat lunch and maybe a snack. I should find a Subway or even if I am eating somewhere where there aren't many good foods, I should still get one of them, or eat only a little of what I get and save it.
Birthday Dessert:
We're going out for Gelato. That's healthy right? Well, it's better than ice cream, so I think I'll end up getting something fruity or vanilla...possibly vanilla.
Coffee with Liam:
Hm, buying coffee and being healthy is kind of hard. I might get rid of this and we can go out for lunch instead. I mean, coffee is just packed with calories. It sucks because it's soo good. Let's go out for Thai Food instead. That way I can have lunch and feel full instead of eating a ton of calories and my thirst was simply quenched.
OH YEAH! I was watching Tyra a while ago, and she was saying that there are enough calories in ONE Pop Tart to count as a full meal. WTF?! I used to eat PT all the time! And I wouldn't just eat one in the package, but I'd eat two. And sometimes I would have two packages a day. This was when I decided to look at the package. No joke, there is a bajillion calories in EACH of them. I won't say how many, look it up yourself, but really, it's amazing. I always thought they were good for you...even the low-fat ones.
Wow.
I haven't eaten yet, but it looks like my step-dad is making cinnamon-rolls with bacon in them...TALK ABOUT HOW BAD THOSE ARE, taste wise and health wise. I might cave and have one or two. But that'll suffice as breakfast. I'm leaving to go get make-up at noon, so I'll probably be home around two or 1:30. That really depends. Which means I can have lunch LATER in the day, meaning, I won't have to snack :DDD We're running out of food, hahaha, so I might have cereal for lunch. Cereal with...I don't know yet, probably just cereal. Hey, food is food.
I honestly cannot wait until my mom goes to the grocery store. Because I'm making a list for her, a list of things I'll need. Like, yogurt, grapes, apples, bananas, granola bars, some sort of healthy cracker, and that's good.
But...I'll be honest, again. I KnOw, I kNoW I will just cave in many situations coming up. Like Thanksgiving. And my party. And my birthday dessert. And coffee with Liam. And ahhh, just soo many things. Below, I'll make some compromises:
Thanksgiving:
Instead of going for seconds...I won't. I'll take smaller portions of turkey, potatoes, stuffing, and only one roll. I mean, there is no real healthy way to eat on thanksgiving unless your family is vegan or something...
My Party:
I know no one will want to eat veggies and fruits. So I'll still have chips, cookies, and soda...BUT, once again, I'll limit myself. This whole thing needs to start with me being able to limit myself. I eat and eat and eat, but I need to learn to just eat. Before hand we are going to Seattle, which means that's where I'll eat lunch and maybe a snack. I should find a Subway or even if I am eating somewhere where there aren't many good foods, I should still get one of them, or eat only a little of what I get and save it.
Birthday Dessert:
We're going out for Gelato. That's healthy right? Well, it's better than ice cream, so I think I'll end up getting something fruity or vanilla...possibly vanilla.
Coffee with Liam:
Hm, buying coffee and being healthy is kind of hard. I might get rid of this and we can go out for lunch instead. I mean, coffee is just packed with calories. It sucks because it's soo good. Let's go out for Thai Food instead. That way I can have lunch and feel full instead of eating a ton of calories and my thirst was simply quenched.
OH YEAH! I was watching Tyra a while ago, and she was saying that there are enough calories in ONE Pop Tart to count as a full meal. WTF?! I used to eat PT all the time! And I wouldn't just eat one in the package, but I'd eat two. And sometimes I would have two packages a day. This was when I decided to look at the package. No joke, there is a bajillion calories in EACH of them. I won't say how many, look it up yourself, but really, it's amazing. I always thought they were good for you...even the low-fat ones.
Wow.
Saturday, November 21, 2009
1,871
That's how many calories I have taken in today...not bad! I have more Jello, too, so that's good. I joined website and it says how many calories I have to eat each day in order to lose two pounds a week. Granted, I haven't exercised, so its not entirely accurate, BUT, I know if I eat around this much each day, I'll notice some differences. I think I'll work out everyday after school, but take the weekends off. So that way I can relax and get other things done and hang out with friends. Also, on the weekends, I think I'll take it easy on the calorie counting.
Stina, if you're reading this, the website is... http://www.myfitnesspal.com
I'm only using it for recipes, calorie counting and exercises.
I'm not in this for calorie counting by the way, I just will use it for a few weeks or until I can keep a handle on how 'bad' each food I eat really is. But hey, I did well today for day one. Now that I've seen how many calories I've taken in, I really didn't do too shabby.
Day one----SUCCESS! Whoo!
Stina, if you're reading this, the website is... http://www.myfitnesspal.com
I'm only using it for recipes, calorie counting and exercises.
I'm not in this for calorie counting by the way, I just will use it for a few weeks or until I can keep a handle on how 'bad' each food I eat really is. But hey, I did well today for day one. Now that I've seen how many calories I've taken in, I really didn't do too shabby.
Day one----SUCCESS! Whoo!
Oh yeah!
I forgot to put up photos and take measurements, but I think I'll just record my results at the end of every week. So be on the look-out when Saturdays come around!
Another part of this beauty, healthiness thing is my cosmetic hygiene. I'm going to buy more foundation tomorrow, pluck and reshape my eyebrows and just look my best EVERYDAY, even if I'm wearing jeans and a t-shirt.
I think my biggest goal, well, I have two:
1. Join an African Dance team during the summer. Hopefully I can get in shape enough to where I can move freely, my goal is to have this done by July 1st
2. Make a website dedicated to my singing. I'm NOT a good singer, but I'm convinced I can teach myself how to have a good voice. Not a great one, just a mediocre one ;] I want this to be done, by...let's say...March 25th. Random date, but that gives me a few months to perfect a song, then another and another and another and another, you get it.
You know, this isn't just going to be about my weightloss, I'll incorporate how I change mentally, too. I feel that as I start to look better, my mindset will change also. We'll see.
I might get stressed doing this because of school and homework and other various commitments.
But no matter what, I HAVE to record what I eat everyday, no matter, seriously, no matter. what.
In total what I ate for the day:
- a bowl of cheerios, with 1% milk and a tbsp of sugar
- a bowl of chicken noodle soup
- one toasted cheese sandwich with 1 tbsp of margarine, a slice of real cheddar cheese, and on wheat bread
- a small bowl of raspberry jello
- a cup of coffee
- cough drops
- a pb&j sandwich
- one serving of lasagna hamburger helper
- three 'JR' butter, biscuits
Not bad, I suppose.
Another part of this beauty, healthiness thing is my cosmetic hygiene. I'm going to buy more foundation tomorrow, pluck and reshape my eyebrows and just look my best EVERYDAY, even if I'm wearing jeans and a t-shirt.
I think my biggest goal, well, I have two:
1. Join an African Dance team during the summer. Hopefully I can get in shape enough to where I can move freely, my goal is to have this done by July 1st
2. Make a website dedicated to my singing. I'm NOT a good singer, but I'm convinced I can teach myself how to have a good voice. Not a great one, just a mediocre one ;] I want this to be done, by...let's say...March 25th. Random date, but that gives me a few months to perfect a song, then another and another and another and another, you get it.
You know, this isn't just going to be about my weightloss, I'll incorporate how I change mentally, too. I feel that as I start to look better, my mindset will change also. We'll see.
I might get stressed doing this because of school and homework and other various commitments.
But no matter what, I HAVE to record what I eat everyday, no matter, seriously, no matter. what.
In total what I ate for the day:
- a bowl of cheerios, with 1% milk and a tbsp of sugar
- a bowl of chicken noodle soup
- one toasted cheese sandwich with 1 tbsp of margarine, a slice of real cheddar cheese, and on wheat bread
- a small bowl of raspberry jello
- a cup of coffee
- cough drops
- a pb&j sandwich
- one serving of lasagna hamburger helper
- three 'JR' butter, biscuits
Not bad, I suppose.
Dinner!
We had lasagna Hamburger Helper.
I had an average serving and three small, biscuits (which I'm sure were packed with calories).
I put my 'seconds' in the fridge as a snack or lunch, probably lunch. But it depends how late I'm staying up tonight. I might have that in an hour and then some jello if I get hungry later.
That's not a good idea, but it's better than eating, eating, eating.
We'll see, I'm pretty full at the moment and I might have some tea, hot chocolate or something else to fill me up if I need it.
I'll declare today a success, but I plan for tomorrow to fix my mistakes.
More ranting, blogging and journal-ing tomorrow! :D
I had an average serving and three small, biscuits (which I'm sure were packed with calories).
I put my 'seconds' in the fridge as a snack or lunch, probably lunch. But it depends how late I'm staying up tonight. I might have that in an hour and then some jello if I get hungry later.
That's not a good idea, but it's better than eating, eating, eating.
We'll see, I'm pretty full at the moment and I might have some tea, hot chocolate or something else to fill me up if I need it.
I'll declare today a success, but I plan for tomorrow to fix my mistakes.
More ranting, blogging and journal-ing tomorrow! :D
More for day 1 (11/21/09)
To make the reading of this easier, I'll change the date for each new day, and in between each day I'll use word titles, make sense? You'll catch on. Not that anyone is really reading this, but maybe someone will. They'll be searching the web and come across this, who. really. knows.
Other things I have eaten today:
'x' amount of Cough drops
a PB&J sandwich (probably my last one for a while, those are PACKED with calories...)
a cup of coffee
I'm doing okay, but the day is hardly over and I'm already nearing the end of my 'allowed' calories. I think we're having hamburgers for dinner, so I should just have one, and eat another one later on or tomorrow.
Oh yeah, I need to eat slow! The slower you eat, the faster you get filled, meaning, that I can get filled QUICKER by eating LESS. Let's see if this works. Also, I need to drink more water, water is supposed to fill you up, too. Let's see how that goes, too.
I'm kind of glad I'm making this public. I won't post it on Facebook, just yet. I'm not embarrassed that I need to lose weight (it's pretty obvious), but I feel motivated by putting this out there. Idon't want to let people down that know about this blog.
Though, just as much as I am excited, I'm also anxious. I just want to be smaller ALREADY. I think I might start working out in a couple weeks, once I get everything in track and all of this craziness is over, hey, maybe I'll start next week since we get out of school early.
Things I like about myself:
- My height
- My ankles (I'm glad they aren't cankles I guess, hahaha)
- My eyes
- I'm smarter than people think, so that throws them off
- I'm a 14-year old taking advanced sophomore classes, skills desu nee!
- I've gained independence
- I've broken out of my shell
^My 'thinspiration' so to speak.
Other things I have eaten today:
'x' amount of Cough drops
a PB&J sandwich (probably my last one for a while, those are PACKED with calories...)
a cup of coffee
I'm doing okay, but the day is hardly over and I'm already nearing the end of my 'allowed' calories. I think we're having hamburgers for dinner, so I should just have one, and eat another one later on or tomorrow.
Oh yeah, I need to eat slow! The slower you eat, the faster you get filled, meaning, that I can get filled QUICKER by eating LESS. Let's see if this works. Also, I need to drink more water, water is supposed to fill you up, too. Let's see how that goes, too.
I'm kind of glad I'm making this public. I won't post it on Facebook, just yet. I'm not embarrassed that I need to lose weight (it's pretty obvious), but I feel motivated by putting this out there. Idon't want to let people down that know about this blog.
Though, just as much as I am excited, I'm also anxious. I just want to be smaller ALREADY. I think I might start working out in a couple weeks, once I get everything in track and all of this craziness is over, hey, maybe I'll start next week since we get out of school early.
Things I like about myself:
- My height
- My ankles (I'm glad they aren't cankles I guess, hahaha)
- My eyes
- I'm smarter than people think, so that throws them off
- I'm a 14-year old taking advanced sophomore classes, skills desu nee!
- I've gained independence
- I've broken out of my shell
^My 'thinspiration' so to speak.
Day One Pt. 2
What I've eaten thus far today:
- Bowl of Cheerios
- Bowl of chicken noddle soup
- Toasted cheese sandwich
- Raspberry Jello
I'm doing pretty good, I didn't put much cheese onto the sandwich or that much margarine (that's right NOT butter or butter spread or butter/margarine spread or margarine spread). This is pretty good. When dinner time rears around, I think I might eat half of what I get (depending on what we're having) and save the rest for a snack later on in the night or for lunch tomorrow. I need to work on smaller portions, even though mine aren't too big to begin with. I got myself into this mess.
Actually, no. I don't want to blame this all on my parents, but when I think about it, they are the ones that taught me these eating habits. I've been like this for a long time and it seems as if this is all I know. I'll get better. I'll show myself that I can change life-long habits. I've been like this for 14 years, it'll be a tough road, but I'll prosper.
Another thing I want to change about myself at the moment is my make-up and hair. I feel like I wear too much make up. I wear liquid foundation, bronzer (as eye-shadow), shimmer powder (on the inner corners of my eyes and on my brow bone) and then mascara. I want to wear close to none. I'm gonna work on clearing up my face, and then I'll try to wear hardly any foundation. Until then, I think I'll do foundation, shimmer powder and mascara. Still, that's a lot to me, because it seems like people these days either wear A LOT or NONE. I wish I could be that flawless (so I could wear none). Oh well, we'll see what happens.
With Thanksgiving coming up, this diet might have to take a day-off. I mean, stuffing, pie, cookies, turkey, potatoes, just...soo. much.
- Bowl of Cheerios
- Bowl of chicken noddle soup
- Toasted cheese sandwich
- Raspberry Jello
I'm doing pretty good, I didn't put much cheese onto the sandwich or that much margarine (that's right NOT butter or butter spread or butter/margarine spread or margarine spread). This is pretty good. When dinner time rears around, I think I might eat half of what I get (depending on what we're having) and save the rest for a snack later on in the night or for lunch tomorrow. I need to work on smaller portions, even though mine aren't too big to begin with. I got myself into this mess.
Actually, no. I don't want to blame this all on my parents, but when I think about it, they are the ones that taught me these eating habits. I've been like this for a long time and it seems as if this is all I know. I'll get better. I'll show myself that I can change life-long habits. I've been like this for 14 years, it'll be a tough road, but I'll prosper.
Another thing I want to change about myself at the moment is my make-up and hair. I feel like I wear too much make up. I wear liquid foundation, bronzer (as eye-shadow), shimmer powder (on the inner corners of my eyes and on my brow bone) and then mascara. I want to wear close to none. I'm gonna work on clearing up my face, and then I'll try to wear hardly any foundation. Until then, I think I'll do foundation, shimmer powder and mascara. Still, that's a lot to me, because it seems like people these days either wear A LOT or NONE. I wish I could be that flawless (so I could wear none). Oh well, we'll see what happens.
With Thanksgiving coming up, this diet might have to take a day-off. I mean, stuffing, pie, cookies, turkey, potatoes, just...soo. much.
Day One
Today is my day one and it's quite exciting. I started it all off well with a bowl of Cheerios. But it doesn't help that I'm getting sick and I have to have cough drops which are 30 calories, that'll add up. Ah, I hope it goes away soon.
I'm very ecstatic to get this going (again). I did this whole working out, eating right deal over the summer, but now, now that school has started again I kind of feel like I need to be this way--skinny I mean. I know not all pretty girls are skinny, but most are. I don't even think I am that pretty, plus I'm big, so what does that leave me? I always have guy friends, guy friends that view me as perfect girlfriend material, but then they say, "Uh, you're not my type". And then it's awkward for me, because I know exactly what they mean.
I met this new guy, Shawn. He's a freshman in GSA, and he makes me soo happy. I don't want to go out with him or be his girlfriend and I don't have a crush on him, but he's soo sweet and he gives great hugs (which are awesome). I love Shawn.
I also met this other guy, Liam, who is real nice, kinda cute, and has just about everything in common with me. And everyone says, "Go for it, Olivia!" or "Be confident!", but I don't know. I kinda already made a move by asking him to hang out...wait:
This blog isn't for that. Well, I was getting off track.
Anyway, I foresee today being very good. It's probably going to be filled with grilled-cheese and soup, well for lunch. Which isn't exactly 'healthy', but it's better than a lot of things I could be having. It'll make me feel better and then I can curl up on the living room couch and watch a movie (scary or Lifetime, not sure yet).
Oh yeah, my goals aren't to be a little size zero or a size two, because I think it'd be nearly, if not entirely impossible for that to happen. My actual goal is to be around a size 10-12, which I think is reasonable for my height and body frame, hell, even a size or two lower would be great. I don't think this is soo much for cosmetic reasons as much as I just want it so I can be healthy and happy.
I'm just excited for life, you know? I'm fine the way I am now, but once I am healthy, I think things will be better.
I'm very ecstatic to get this going (again). I did this whole working out, eating right deal over the summer, but now, now that school has started again I kind of feel like I need to be this way--skinny I mean. I know not all pretty girls are skinny, but most are. I don't even think I am that pretty, plus I'm big, so what does that leave me? I always have guy friends, guy friends that view me as perfect girlfriend material, but then they say, "Uh, you're not my type". And then it's awkward for me, because I know exactly what they mean.
I met this new guy, Shawn. He's a freshman in GSA, and he makes me soo happy. I don't want to go out with him or be his girlfriend and I don't have a crush on him, but he's soo sweet and he gives great hugs (which are awesome). I love Shawn.
I also met this other guy, Liam, who is real nice, kinda cute, and has just about everything in common with me. And everyone says, "Go for it, Olivia!" or "Be confident!", but I don't know. I kinda already made a move by asking him to hang out...wait:
This blog isn't for that. Well, I was getting off track.
Anyway, I foresee today being very good. It's probably going to be filled with grilled-cheese and soup, well for lunch. Which isn't exactly 'healthy', but it's better than a lot of things I could be having. It'll make me feel better and then I can curl up on the living room couch and watch a movie (scary or Lifetime, not sure yet).
Oh yeah, my goals aren't to be a little size zero or a size two, because I think it'd be nearly, if not entirely impossible for that to happen. My actual goal is to be around a size 10-12, which I think is reasonable for my height and body frame, hell, even a size or two lower would be great. I don't think this is soo much for cosmetic reasons as much as I just want it so I can be healthy and happy.
I'm just excited for life, you know? I'm fine the way I am now, but once I am healthy, I think things will be better.
Friday, November 20, 2009
GOALZ
1. Lose in all 5 inches BY March 1st
2. Give compliments, even if I don't receive any
3. Get my homework done
4. Keep my room clean
5. Make healthy choices (food-wise and for everything else)
6. Make myself happy, I'm doing this for me, not anyone else.
I'll come up with more as time goes on.
It's only day one in 10 minutes.
Remember, you bite it, you write it ;]
I'm excited to get this started up, I think I'll start my exercise by speed-cleaning my room.
Oh yeah, I'm going to use a calorie counter, too. Well, just to start out with, so I can get an idea of how many calories I am really taking in.
I promise, these entries will get better and better as this whole shin-dig begins, it's early on with the program, I'm just a beginner.
2. Give compliments, even if I don't receive any
3. Get my homework done
4. Keep my room clean
5. Make healthy choices (food-wise and for everything else)
6. Make myself happy, I'm doing this for me, not anyone else.
I'll come up with more as time goes on.
It's only day one in 10 minutes.
Remember, you bite it, you write it ;]
I'm excited to get this started up, I think I'll start my exercise by speed-cleaning my room.
Oh yeah, I'm going to use a calorie counter, too. Well, just to start out with, so I can get an idea of how many calories I am really taking in.
I promise, these entries will get better and better as this whole shin-dig begins, it's early on with the program, I'm just a beginner.
A short introduction...
My pal, Christina, influenced me to get back in shape, so this blog will be all about just that.
How shall I start this...?
Well, my name is Olivia and I'm currently 14 years old and a sophomore at Mount Si High School. I'm heavily into human rights, specifically gay rights at the moment. I'm an officer for my high school's Gay/Straight Alliance, and I love it.
My main goal for want to lose weight came from my friends, family and the undying want to just be in shape. I want to be thin, but I'd rather have the body of someone like Kim Kardashian. She has a body, but is in shape and has a hot bod. (http://www.denimology.co.uk/2009/03/Kim-Kardashian-in-Current:Elliott-Skinny-Jeans-4.jpg)
I don't by any means think I'll lose a ton of weight, but if I can just get rid of flab and define myself, then I'll be glad.
I'll take photos and measurements tomorrow, until then, I'll end it at this.
My hands are cold and I am finding it hard to type.
How shall I start this...?
Well, my name is Olivia and I'm currently 14 years old and a sophomore at Mount Si High School. I'm heavily into human rights, specifically gay rights at the moment. I'm an officer for my high school's Gay/Straight Alliance, and I love it.
My main goal for want to lose weight came from my friends, family and the undying want to just be in shape. I want to be thin, but I'd rather have the body of someone like Kim Kardashian. She has a body, but is in shape and has a hot bod. (http://www.denimology.co.uk/2009/03/Kim-Kardashian-in-Current:Elliott-Skinny-Jeans-4.jpg)
I don't by any means think I'll lose a ton of weight, but if I can just get rid of flab and define myself, then I'll be glad.
I'll take photos and measurements tomorrow, until then, I'll end it at this.
My hands are cold and I am finding it hard to type.
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