Day One

Today is my day one and it's quite exciting. I started it all off well with a bowl of Cheerios. But it doesn't help that I'm getting sick and I have to have cough drops which are 30 calories, that'll add up. Ah, I hope it goes away soon.

I'm very ecstatic to get this going (again). I did this whole working out, eating right deal over the summer, but now, now that school has started again I kind of feel like I need to be this way--skinny I mean. I know not all pretty girls are skinny, but most are. I don't even think I am that pretty, plus I'm big, so what does that leave me? I always have guy friends, guy friends that view me as perfect girlfriend material, but then they say, "Uh, you're not my type". And then it's awkward for me, because I know exactly what they mean.

I met this new guy, Shawn. He's a freshman in GSA, and he makes me soo happy. I don't want to go out with him or be his girlfriend and I don't have a crush on him, but he's soo sweet and he gives great hugs (which are awesome). I love Shawn.

I also met this other guy, Liam, who is real nice, kinda cute, and has just about everything in common with me. And everyone says, "Go for it, Olivia!" or "Be confident!", but I don't know. I kinda already made a move by asking him to hang out...wait:

This blog isn't for that. Well, I was getting off track.

Anyway, I foresee today being very good. It's probably going to be filled with grilled-cheese and soup, well for lunch. Which isn't exactly 'healthy', but it's better than a lot of things I could be having. It'll make me feel better and then I can curl up on the living room couch and watch a movie (scary or Lifetime, not sure yet).

Oh yeah, my goals aren't to be a little size zero or a size two, because I think it'd be nearly, if not entirely impossible for that to happen. My actual goal is to be around a size 10-12, which I think is reasonable for my height and body frame, hell, even a size or two lower would be great. I don't think this is soo much for cosmetic reasons as much as I just want it so I can be healthy and happy.

I'm just excited for life, you know? I'm fine the way I am now, but once I am healthy, I think things will be better.